Dying To Live
A selection of ballads (doesn't include songs that are too personal, like those I wrote for my GF). I like: Time To Die (my favourite and IMHO the best song I ever wrote), Vanishing, Lost Battle, Lost Hopes.
In the beginning all souls are white
In the beginning hearts filled with pride
Life starts on a green plain
Ends in an endless pain
When all this beauty’s over
I wish my life wasn’t so gray
I wish it was slower
But I have strength only to say
[chorus:]
I wish I had more time for life
Yes I wish, I wish to continue
But I know it’s time to die
Yes I know it’s time, time to come to you
Oh God, don’t take my soul yet
Oh no, I’m not ready to be left
Please, fulfill my only wish
My only wish is to live
Dust settles on the heart and all
Once hot, now it’s so cold
If the time could only be turned
My life won’t be so quickly burned
My end is closing near
Absolute destruction of all I ever knew
All my darkest fears
By daemons of Armageddon chewed
[chorus]
Once I’ll die, the world’ll
die with me
I don’t know where I’m going to be
Memories vanish out
Memories cry so loud
I can only guess
Where I’m going to land
Will it be curse or bless
There, where God will me send
[chorus]
Time to die, the end is here
I will call my death my dear
It’s the last one I’ll ever meet
I’ll just listen to her endless creed
I will feel her claws in my heart
Tearing it in pieces
Her deadly grip that’s so hard
I feel those poison breezes
[chorus]
I can still remember better times
But now I hear just my death’s rhymes
Death is not as far as I think
I face my death in combat rink
I see her fangs glancing in sun
She wants to drink my blood
I prepare for the final run
It’s time to die, but I wish to live
I'm waking up but cannot open my
eyes
It happened thousand times before
But now it's other, my life dies
Drowning sailor near the shore
I'm waving my arms yet nothing moves
This cannot be happening to me
Cannot leave those living nightmares
Paralyzed I hope it's bad dream
Dying while living it's so sad
Tomorrow is my yesterday
This cannot be real I'm mad
But I cannot convince myself
[chorus:]
Disappearing vanishing
Suffering dark banishing
Revenge of my own body
Watching but see nobody
Screaming but hear nothing
Touching but can't feel a thing
Sentenced to senseless lying
I'm vanishing and dying
I'm taking the form of foggy mists
My body melts in the air
My hands are gripped into fists
Cannot feel blood in my veins
I'm trying to touch my face
But my hand disappears before my eyes
Can't my death slow her pace
To let me say goodbye
Farewell to my arms and to my legs
Will something of me remain or not
I feel like thrown onto sharpened pegs
Rather I'll vanish than I would rot
[chorus]
Fog
Twisting 'round me
Gloom
All I can see
Hiss
All I can hear
Bite
All I can feel
Dust
I'm turning into
Die
Everything I can do
[chorus]
To vanish means to die
Any cure would I try
To make me whole again
The cruelest of fates
Dying thousand deaths
I will see the sun no more
[chorus]
I stand in the middle of highway
And an endless stream of cars goes around
I walk through the middle of highway
And no truck’s gonna pull me down
I’m runnin’ in the middle of highway
Causin’ crashes all around
I’m sleepin’ in the middle of highway
Havin’ another dreamless night
[chorus:]
It’s the highway of life
It’s the highway of life
It’s the highway of life
It’s the highway of life
I’m just a drop in the sea
In a sack a small pea
And I doubt this world is real
I wonder if it ain’t just a dream
Maybe I was dreamin’ since I was born
Maybe I’m not human but an earthworm
Maybe I can fly, fly up to the sky
Bein’ lift by the wind, flyin’ on the highway of life
[chorus]
When you the life gives no sense
If you wanna cut your veins
Stop searchin’ for innocence
And take your own life’s reins
Don’t let yourself be manipulated
By any sort of false leaders
Instead be free, free like a bird
Throw away your chains
And fly, fly to the sky
[chorus]
The sky has closed and you wake up
You realize that you’ve been dreamin’
But remember what I’ve said
And throw away your chains
[chorus]
[chorus]
There he stands in the middle of
battlefield
Havin’ no more hands weapon to wield
There he lies on the battlefield
And he doubts that fight was real
Thousands orcs he has killed
Why, he doesn’t know
Lakes with blood he has filled
With his sword and bow
[chorus:]
Everybody listen
The battle is lost
Everybody run
The battle is lost
For all purposes
Four black roses
This battle is lost
Now he lies down almost dead
For devil’s deeds he has bled
Now that he has realized
He shouldn’t take part in this fight
Now that he knows he has lost
Now that he knows his life cost
[chorus]
His sword broke on orcish helm
Then orc stroke, sent him to hell
Now that he is dying
He knows who was lying
Now he knows he shouldn’t get into that hell
Now that he hears his own funeral bell
[chorus]
Farewell, heroes, farewell
Do you hear that bell?
Farewell, heroes, farewell
It’s funeral bell
Farewell!
How could I be so blind
Hopin’ I will love find
Trustin’ you was an error
Reason why I shake with horror
Trapped in web of own hopes
Climbin’ up on thin ropes
[chorus:]
Ropes torn and lost
Feelin’ nothin’ at all
Hopes torn and lost
Crushin’ head to wall
Ropes and hopes
Both torn and lost
Abandoned my hopes
Abandoned my foolish quest
You’ve cut my ropes
You caused me to cut the rest
Shattered dreams and all
Now my heart’s so cold
[chorus]
Lost all, lost more
That even could be lost
Torn now, heart sore
Everything has it cost
Nothing left you me
Now just leave me be
[chorus]
Lost in the maze of my own mind
The only way out is my death
Caught in a prison without fight
All the bars around feed my wrath
I just can't withstand this cage
Icy cold sends me shivering to the ground
Filling my thoughts with rage
In small sphere deep in Earth I am found
[chorus:]
Trapped in the underworld
Roaming this dark place full of horrors
Dying alive
Living to die
Trapped in the underworld
Imprisoned beyond man's world's ground
No longer will I be here
Break the cage to be free
Hiding myself from my own conscience
Time here in darkness' so grim and black
I made mistake and suffer the consequence
But I'll try to get my life back on the track
Palms burned by fiery bars
Fighting for my freedom
My body trying to get out
But my mind's still here oh no
[chorus]
Now the bars twist and break open
Escaping from this hell
Onto freedom I have broken
I know I've done well
I withstood the imprisonment time
Fled from the depth insane in pain
Now am I free it's oh so fine
But soon it's gonna be bad again
[chorus]
Back to Hammerhead "Discography"